Saturday, 16 May 2009

Quality of Life

For a while now I've been questioning what gives someone a good quality of life. This has lead me to two conclusions:

1/ Someone has a good quality of life if they are happy in their professional life. If they have a job that they are passionate about, that they are satisfied with and they are proud of.

2/ Their social life is complete. They have good friends and a great family life. The relationships in their life provide them with strength and make them happy.

Everything else in between can fall into other catagories or fall into insignificance when compared to these areas in my opinion. For example nobody could claim watching the X-Factor makes them truly happy above having a good job or friends and family. Likewise nobody could say going jogging makes them happy above all else - not without sounding crazy anyway!


My problem recently is that I have found the two areas almost impossible to run together and I have started to question which one is more important - both immediately and in the long-term.

I moved to London as I really want to work in TV and make dramas which influence the way people think and stir emotions within them. I felt that was what I wanted to do and it would make me happy in the long term. Unfortunately I think at the time I took for granted how happy my friends and family made me.
This has become apparent to me since moving to London and having to cope without them all. As I type this it is 5:20pm on a saturday afternoon. I haven't left the flat and haven't spoken to anyone all day. This is not untypical of a weekend for me in London. Over the last month or so it hasn't been as big a problem as I have been working a lot more so had less time to spend alone but it is on days like these today where I recognise what is important in making me happy in life.

I remind myself every day how lucky I am as I truly believe I have the best friends in the world.

My school mates are amongst the best people I know. Everytime we are together we never fail to have a laugh - we look out for one another when on nights out and there is always one of us there for each other. If proof was ever needed of how good my mates are then jump onto my facebook and look at the photos entitled "The Weirdest Day of my Life" where you can see where my mates held a day "celebrating" me.....yes me. They had t-shirts with my face on it, masks of my face, business cards and a 10ft by 10ft poster of my face all of which they took clubbing with us that night and spread the word of "loving Chris Hall". Has anyone ever heard of people doing something similar? I've not, it was very touching but also a little scary - it was like I had cancer and only a few days to live or something! Added to this it was held on Valentines day where a few of my mates had to blow out their girlfriends to enjoy this day - how awesome is that! Evidence indeed of how lucky I am.

My uni mates equally are very supportive. Nicky and James didn't bat an eye-lid when I asked if I could move in with them when I got a job in London - I lived with them for over 2 months and they wouldn't take any money from me....and they never rushed me to move out and were there for me when I went on and on about missing Shona and everyone else - they've always been there for me. People like Malky as well lets me stay with him without any question whenever I visit Glasgow - it's like a 2nd (or third) home for me.

When I graduated Uni I was in a place where I was living in the happiest time of my life so far and what makes being away from Scotland so hard is worrying if I'll ever get these moments spent there back. Upon leaving I was sure that my professional life was going to make me happy....I was wrong.
I now know nothing will make me happier than being with the people I love. I don't ever remember being around my friends and being unhappy. I can think of plenty of times I have been at work and been unhappy! Looking to the future I can't see where I could possibly go in the world of TV which would come anywhere near to making me as happy as I am when with my friends.
Hypothetically if I can find a TV job in Scotland it will go help a lot.
What I do know however is that if I stay in this city much longer it could kill me. Maybe not literally but as the person I am when I'm at my happiest and the person I want to be. I need to go home soon, I don't want to become the person London and the TV industry makes me....

There is a relationship as well I am not mentioning which went alongside my friends in making me happy. That I am not mentioning as I am pretty powerless over it. I know what I want to happen there but it's not something that is purely down to me. I do live in hope that it will be as it once was before but stronger some time soon.

In conclusion - friends = good, being away from friends = bad.

Never underestimate how rich having greats friends makes you....

Over an Oot.

2 comments:

  1. You are SO emo. WAY more than I am.
    But I love you anyway.
    A bit ;)

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